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by H. C. Turk

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    •I Eat Puppies
    •The Deity's Nick
    •Not A Dance
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How Can You Sleep?: Some people are so *wrong* that they shouldn't be able to sleep at night: "If generosity could be a fatal flaw / then you're immortal in your greed." It's a tough song, but not mean, and I hope you enjoy it.

Take It With You: People who reach for a greater good with healing emotions sometimes fall, if only by failing to give their finest feelings to their closest friends.

I Eat Puppies: The first lines explain this love song: "I eat puppies in bad dreams / Just like you'll eat my mind." Obviously, the affair could have been better. *NO PUPPIES WERE HARMED IN THE CREATION OF THIS MUSIC.

The Deity's Nick: What IS the Deity's Nick? Gawd? HeyYou? Holy Moly? All kidding aside, this is a serious song about a man who is so depressed with his life that he comes to doubt even his religious beliefs. But the track itself is not depressing (I hope).

Outer Spacious (No Cowboy): A cowboy card game with aliens! At stake is life, death, and the space-time continuum! Will the protagonist be hanged for his unearthly crimes, or will his mom kick the aliens' butts??

Bring Night: This song depicts the culture of suicide bombers, who give their lives for a cause. Bring Night is not an homage of support, but a serious (even melancholy) story of real people.

Never Been To The Moon: As cool as the moon, this song approaches the expanse of outer space, and fills it with feeling.

Not A Dance: In this track, I reconstruct a song's constituent elements (vox, percussion, instrumentals) in a unique manner, creating dance music like no other, because it's Not A Dance.

I Don't Want To Do That: The last track on the album is a set of vox outtakes, all spontaneous, with Funny Noises, laughable mistakes, chattering teeth (from the cold), and other appealing vocal events.

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released May 30, 2011

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H. C. Turk

Space pirates steal skinny gals. Ideas are greater monsters than the demons they explain. I'd bare my soul, but don't want to bore.

These Mystiphysical treasures can be found in my work, brainy music to make you think about feeling fantastic. In a sonic world where art is the ultimate animal, music evolution never ends, rising from the depths of the psyche to sing across a new sky.
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Track Name: Take It With You
You wake to find yourself falling
You vowed to live your dreams before they died
You’re not afraid of flying
If walking doesn’t fit
A nightmare flight surrounds you
Now you’re about to hit

Don’t feel you can heal people then
Take their hearts and go
You’ll arrive below
To buy the greatest fame
Or sell the sweetest shame
Take it with you when you go

You reach to find yourself clawing
Grab again and you’ll find the end of your line
I never earned your blessing
I hope to learn your curse
You never took my sharing
I don’t know which is worse

Don’t feel that ideal people are only those you know
You’ll appear below
To end your greatest shame
And start your final fame
Take it with you when you go

You wake to find yourself falling
Make a move and you’ll find the end of your time
The energy of honor
The effort of regret
You’ve left the finest spaces
But haven’t hit ground yet

Don’t kneel before real people but
Take your time and go
You’ll arrive below
To buy the greatest fame
Or sell the sweetest shame
Take it with you when you go

You rose to find yourself crawling
Make a move and you’ll find the end of your time
Create a better journey
A gratified affair
If this will be your last breath
You’ll finally own the air

Don’t feel you can steal my love then
Take your heart and go
You’re not falling slow
We’d cure the sickest lies
But even doctors die
Take me with you when you go
Track Name: I Eat Puppies
I eat puppies in bad dreams
Just like you’ll eat my mind
On Asian streets that kill your feet
Hot dogs go for a dime

Long-neck fences can’t hide you
Beer ain’t booze, just a buzz
You eat men, just like hens
I won’t choke on your love

The monster of your memory
Revives a zombie time when
Infatuation failed and
Your love became a crime to
Those whose hearts lose

I eat puppies for breakfast
If sold in a jar with a lid
On Asian streets that kill your meat
Hot dogs go for a quid

I eat veggies for dinner
If they’re blood-red, fat, with no lean
Cats and dogs, just like hogs
Walk on a set of four feet

The monster of your memory
Revives a zombie time when
Consideration failed and
Your love became a crime to
Those who can’t lose

I’m your puppy in bad dreams
You stroke me from tail to paw
I beg for calm
You tell your mom,
“I eat my puppies raw”

I’m your killer in past dreams
Where kings and queers have it made
A royal hex makes backwards sex
Wake, your pet wants a raise

Don’t change your nightmare till the end of your dream
Don’t run with dogs just to bitch and bite them
When lies remained your theme
Your cries became a scream
To those who won’t lose

I’m your lover in sad dreams
I won’t take what you give
You eat no meat, yet murder me
I’ll continue to live

The men you treated like hell defeated you
Time for you to forgive
Track Name: How Can You Sleep?
I learned to steal whatever cravings I could deal
Then learned to give what others need
If generosity can be a fatal flaw
Then you’re immortal in your greed
Lying to love is forsaking, making darkness from the light
Why can’t you see the deceit that you keep
And how can you sleep at night?

How can you sleep at night
When gluttony is your appetite?
How can you feed us lies you think we need
And how can you sleep at night?

Panting children lay like patterns on the carpet
Not expecting to be fed
Too young to have their first idea
Too weak to wish that they were dead
We hired your energy to generate a peace
But you profit from another plight
How can you steal and never have to feel
And how can you sleep at night?

How can you sleep at night?
How do you steal a life?
How can you take and persuade that you make
And how can you sleep at night?

The world contains two types of warriors
Both presume help from above
Those who try to kill the things they hate
And those who fight for what they love
I’d love to fool the universal rule
Allowing lowlifes to walk upright
How can you conceal disguises that reveal
You deserve no sleep at night?

How can you sleep at night
When your nightmares expedite
How you make the sky think that air might be a lie
And how can you sleep at night?

Can you take another dollar, should I give another inch?
When you look into a mirror, who’s the first to flinch?
Questions end when every answer sends
A message packing blood
The truth we need is too pure to breed
When guns become tough love
Too weak to have a good idea
But strong enough to spit
Craving raving vengeance
I won’t take another hit
Empathy has ended
Now I’m ready to fight
You taught the cold to burn
But now you’ll have to learn that
You won’t sleep at night

How can I win a fight that exchanges wrong and right?
How can your sin become a type of win
And how can you sleep at night?
Track Name: The Deity's Nick
Another long walk from the bone yard
Another hard drop from the sky
One more run to a life fight
Not one good reason why

One more shift with the dirt bags
Whose worst traits imply they're kin
One more cheating teaser
I don't know if I get to win

I'm doing nothing here that doesn't make me spit fear
At least we get it over quick
One more decade of bullshit
That has to be the deity's nick

What's wrong with me
I'm going nowhere at increasing speed
Can't trash my ration of identity
Or tame this lame hyperbole

Excess hurts

What's wrong might be
You have to feel that you are free to leave
You found a pathway to eternity
But it's hard so why not cheat?

Excess works

Some start starving for love at birth
Some are born over the hill
Some get fat without eating
Sperm worm gives you your fill

Folks who find heaven can really raise hell
In sacred sites and in bars
Your alien ways tell you life is a play
And that Jesus came from Mars

The things I'm taking don't weigh much
The rest I'll have to leave behind
A kid who makes a kid, another average man
That has to be The Bullshit's plan

What's wrong, I see,
Is that you only want more songs from me
If I could manage to set you free
You'd rather watch it on TV

Excess hurts

What's wrong with me
Is that I'd rather feed you songs like these
Instead of trying to set you free
With indifferent expertise

Excess works

Another long walk from the back yard
Another hard stop from a cry
One more run to a life fright
Don't need one reason why

I'm buying nothing here that doesn't make me sell fear
Can't afford this priceless plan
If your final wish is seeing gardens blossom again
Your life ain't been worth a damn

What's wrong, I plead
Is that you're staying too long with me
Still hoping for guarantees
You think you're strong because you bleed

Excess hurts

What's wrong, I scream,
Is that I'd rather hide from thoughts like these
Instead of stopping at serenity
You need to see it's just a tease

Excess works
Track Name: Outer Spacious (No Cowboy)
Playing cards with creatures
Gun against my face
Someone has to hang for this
I hope it's not my place

Thought I had it figured
Finger on the trigger
Gambling with unearthly crime
Five will get you ten some loser's gonna win
Gotta get away this time

You're high faluting till the guns start shooting
Then you become a cowboy from France
Smooth as glass, but when you pass gas
You have to stop and clean your pants

Dead in bed, without a head
Is no way to wake at night
A noose and tree won't let me dance free
Gotta get away in time

Reshape escaping when the route you're taking
Leads fiends to meet your mom
Strange outsiders that sit beside her
And tick like a space-time bomb
A brotherhood your mother would have butchered with the swine
Till she learned the strangers had
Helped you get away from time

Rustlers from Mexico
Terrorists from Idaho
Aliens from System Z
One steals your meat, the next ruins your peace
The last gives advice for free
Beings won't let me be

Starting in a cave, I ended in space, same place, different times
Outer spacious, vast and gracious, empty as my mind
Rescue bought with solitude left me too free
Now I have to find a time when you still loved me
Time when you still love me
Time when you still love(d) me

(Boy, that don't pertain to no cow)
Track Name: Bring Night
Across the desert, one cave in sight
A lovely journey should end in light
This mountain hole will be my home and my new school
Survival tactics won't be taught as a rule

Men, the end is not a terror but our final friend

Only take out the lonely
People in misery have enough grief
Only take out the lonely
People in harmony need no relief

Homes are holes to be filled with love,
Fouled with figment or cleaned with blood
My older home taught me to take out the lonely
Folks who lack in friends but not in their hearts
We have to teach the innocent that they're holy
Sharing warmth will soon create a new start

Men, the end is not a terror but our final friend

Only take out the lonely
People in misery have enough grief
Only take out the lonely
People in harmony need no relief

I cross the city, my end in sight
This final journey turns day to night
I solve the things that sting or fail and then fake it
My one solution will explosively bite
If I can't find a fact, I'll learn how to make it
I come at noon, when I arrive, I bring night

Men, the end is not a terror but our final friend

My newer school taught me to take out the lonely
Remove the losers from a world that's too calm
We have to teach the ignorant that they're holy
The lesson strikes them in the soul like a bomb

In the end, give me a chance and I'll go again

Only take out the lonely
People in misery have enough grief
Only take out the lonely
People in harmony need no relief

Don't ask me out, it's the end of us
No one I love will ever ride my bus
My message screams too loud for words to discuss
You'll only call my number once
Track Name: Never Been To The Moon
I’ve never been to the moon
But I feel light
Never killed a man, am I right?
Breathing dust, the end of air
Your space is a void
It can’t care

Never been to the moon
But I see light
Never killed a man within sight
Vacant lights incite the sky
Revealing the dark you invite

Silence is speech
In a world without air
I’d live with the stone
They can die without prayer

Never been to the moon
Not in this sky
I know what you say by your sighs

Obscene beliefs obscure the stars
We’ll find a new world
One can’t be far

Never been to the moon
Not at this time
Never killed a man who could cry
After you’re gone, our cold will end
Thenever can freeze again

Souls have all the weight
Of the love they make
All the substance of space
Endless yet opaque
Like the time we misplaced

Never been to the moon
Not on this flight
You filled the abyss with a fight
All of my endings can’t begin
To tell you I feel that we’ll meet again

Gravity lies when it pulls my aim down
I’d live like a stone
Terrified to leave ground

Never been to the moon
Not on this high
Never killed a man, but I might
All of my space is filled with when
You learn that we’ll kiss
When you breathe again

I’ve never been to the sun
But I need light
Never touched the moon
But I’ll try

Tears
fall
slowly
on the
moon
Track Name: Not A Dance
Lovers, losers
Move too fast or slow
Don’t know where to go
Fools and fighters
Speed up, can’t stop, go slow, then drop
Every move’s a trip
Time no longer fits

I had enough fun, now I’m dying for guns
Peter eater leaders got freedom on the run
They talk of foreign wars with domesticated rants
Don’t join in if you think it’s a dance

Dance is sex with saints, or ain’t

Terror makers take your vote, then piss on all your rights
You think you found new freedom
But you’re fighting for your life
Backward lives don’t stand a chance
Don’t step ahead if you think it’s a dance

Why not try some flying?

You can’t be slapped down if you crawl on the ground
Wars that start at home can have an intimate sound
You know you need to march
And yet you’re trying to prance
Kick both feet but don’t try to dance

Lovers, liars
Move so fast they fly
Move too slow and die
Suckers, soldiers
Speed up, can’t stop, go slow, then drop
Every move’s a trip
Time no longer fits

Leave your loss alone
You own
My bone and marrow

Defeat in bedroom battles gives your misery a start
Lose your nerve while loving
Find a ghost inside your heart
I shout war, you moan romance
Don’t fall in love if you think it’s a dance

Why not try some crying?

Dance is sex with angels till the demons come along
They make their lies sound musical
But didn’t write this song
Try to love your killer, even if you can’t
Don’t go to hell if you think it’s a dance

Wars start next door
Move too fast and slow
Tell you where to go
Whores and horrors
Speed up, can’t stop, go slow, then drop
Every move’s a trip
Time turns into shit

Losing makes you gag, so start to cry
The damned in life are measured by the size of their lies
We’ll grab from the devils one final chance
Don’t come along if you think it’s a dance

Dance is sex with saints, or ain’t

Why not try some dying?

You lose your place to poverty
Then lose your face to crime
You lose your life to enemies
But never lose your mind
You lose your love to cowards
Who have never dared a chance
Don’t give up if you know you can dance

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